Perfectly Pink--Finding yourself

There's this certain feeling you get when you find yourself. No wonder so many people are chasing who they are. You'll never find yourself that way though. You're always there, you just need to stop trying so hard and let yourself flow back. Do things that make you happy and eventually you'll find yourself completely back where you belong with nothing left to chase. Anyway this feeling is completely amazing. Nothing can compare to this kind of happiness. No matter what turns in the road life will throw at you, when you know exactly who you are and where you stand you are able to handle it all perfectly. You never lose your cool. There's just this huge bubble (not bubble cause bubbles can be popped to easily but you get what I mean) protecting you from all of the chaos and keeping you sane. While in this space you know that it will all work itself out and to not take anything to seriously. Everything you do feels right, all of your thoughts make sense. Everybody around you can tell that something about you has changed and the world surrounding you will change too. It will start fitting your needs. The things you needed so badly it felt like you'd die if you didn't have it but they never came your way...they now effortlessly come almost instantly. Can life really be this easy? Yes, yes it can. We just need to stop fighting the flow and let our self reconnect to who we really are. The only person we should ever aim to be is ourselves. Nobody else out there can be us and if we try to copy other people, than you're just a second rate version of them and who wants that?

Online School

I go to an online school and I have for the past three years. I think online schools are really misunderstood. Last week somebody I know insulted me saying that I don't live in the real world because I don't go to a real school. That is the craziest thing I've ever heard. I do go to a real school, and sure it's different from the typical public school, but that doesn't mean it isn't real or that I don't live in the real world. Ordinary schools are great, I've spend a large chunk of my life in them, but I wouldn't go back into one for all of the money in the world. It's like Kate Chopin's book the Awakening. There was this whole person locked up inside me that I couldn't show the world while I went to a public school. When you are surrounded by society and their thoughts, it is much harder to make all of there voices shut up and be able to hear your own. You can't even notice that this is happening to you until you step away from it for a while and find some of the voices fading away. These three years that I have been going to an online school have been the most fun filled, and self discovering years of my life and I am only beginning. People can say I don't live in the real world, and if the real world is one where you have beliefs stuffed into your head that you don't really believe in and are a roadblock for the rest of your life than they are right, I don't live in that world anymore. I still have friends, but they have to be ones that are supportive of me and the choices I need to make to be able to have the future I dream of. My world is a different one from that of most teenagers. I was able to find myself, the person I always wanted to be but was to scared to be before. What I want for myself keeps changing, but that's okay because every time I just grow more and more as a person. Going to an online school was my own personal awakening and I've enjoyed every minute. I still have a lot of work to do at my school which takes up a lot of time, but I'm a lot happier doing it. Anybody else who feels lost or like their school or environment isn't right for them, I highly recommend them looking at an online school like Connections Academy. Everybody deserves to find themselves. The only person you can be is you. If you are trying to be somebody else than you are just a second rate version of them.